我不知道风往哪一个方向吹

I am sad but I am fine

2011-04-28T15:05:00.000-07:00

Something

2011-01-30T12:55:00.000-08:00

最近很忙，总觉得睡眠不足，总觉得一个人轻松呆在家里听音乐或者闲着什么都不做的时间太少。被各种各样的event包围着，匆匆忙忙的在地铁里穿梭，有成就感，也有恍惚感。
calendar被不同的午餐mingle占据，今天和j，明天和c，后天又和p，同样的话题，不同的听众。
每天最放在心上的，其实是，我要好好工作，好好努力。脑袋里放不下太多东西，也不想放太多东西。每天往来蓝线绿线的交错，计划着下星期午餐又要和谁去mingle，其实也挺累。然后周末闲暇，跟爸妈打电话，似乎成了最放松的事情。
我们的办公室在9楼，透明的大玻璃窗可以看到完美无瑕的stockholm老式街景，反射着白雪的亮光，橙红色的房顶表达着超过百年的岁月。这景色常让我觉得很纯净，很美好。

这个世界很小，小到你可以和某人不期而遇，这个世界也很大，大到很久都仿似在彼此世界消失。

有人让我相信fate，有人又让我怀疑fate，直到现在，我也不知道，是否真的有fate这么一说。总而言之，生活会给你惊喜，也会给你惊讶。还不如一笑了知。

Dan说

2010-11-23T08:45:00.000-08:00

干吗写英文日志！给我好好写中文！

Dan says:
。。。
没有中文写的丰富
英文表现力起码有一半折扣
还是写中文吧

好吧。我错了

巴黎夜未眠

2010-11-22T16:14:00.000-08:00

Ten days in Pairs, I really feel time flies. Lulu and I have known each other for more than ten years, and we have not met around 5 years. We have changed a lot but we remained a lot of things also.

Basically we did not sleep well during the past ten days, the normal schedule of us is felling asleep around 8 or 9 in the morning, waking up around 1 or 2 in the afternoon, then going out, coming back home around 12pm. Linger in the city, have coffee and dessert in the nice café and restaurant, famous church, famous art, famous building. All the nice things make me remember big Paris.

Just by chance, I met Fenni in Paris also. We went to Disney together, and had a really nice dinner in the current no.1 French restaurant. (Really love it!!) Talking about the common friends in Stockholm, taking about the life during the past four years after we came to Sweden, we really feel people come and go, but the friendship never ends.

Maybe this time, I am more like a resident living in Paris, not like a tourist. Discussing the normal life in Pairs, making hot pot with nice friends, all these activities are just the same for all the oversea Chinese. Lulu’s apartment is around 15 minutes away from the center, so I am not so afraid of the complicated Paris map. On the contrary, I think I like the complicated map.

But I really don’t like the large crowd in the public transportation. All these remind me the crowded Peking subway. And I think after four years in Sweden, I have changed to be a calm and peaceful person. Not a cold heart, but definitely I don’t like the crowded city any more. So now I totally understand why so many Swedish go out in the young age, but come back after few years.

There are so many nice and charming places in the world, but there are not so many places where we want to live. We choose something and meanwhile we must give up something else.

It might be a sweet escape

2010-11-10T18:22:00.001-08:00

Someone reads love stories as an escape from reality. Someone use cooking, sports, whatever as an escape.

I travel. I am used to do traveling from time to time, for visiting friends, for tour, for escape.

On the way to the airport, on the flight, you never know who you will meet and chat. You never know what is waiting for you in the new destination. I love this kind of feeling.

Today I woke up and found it was a white city outside, I really feel cold but lucky. I picked a damn right day to fly away. Even I totally have no idea how the weather is in Paris, but I don’t even care. Cause I did my escape already. What I can get in the new place is something that I can not expect too much.

Since I was a kid, because the curiosity to the big big world, I always need to go out, far, further, out of home, out of my country, (I did not say out of the earth -.-) Try to find and get something new. Even I do love the place I lived, but I just can not feel I want to stay there for my lifetime. So I walked away, to a new place. It is hard but somehow I feel really satisfied.

Recently I really feel people will change, sooner or later. That means maybe one day, in the future, eventually, I don’t like to drift anyway. Nothing last forever, no matter how it feels today. That feeling makes me sad, so I suddenly decide to go to the place that I dreamed before. Just like I said and heard, maybe within another 10 years, Paris will still be the same, but I will change. That is something I can not avoid, something that I can not escape from.

The day when I booked the ticket, I was really upset and kind of hurt, and I think nothing is better than an old friend and a sweet cake. So I decide to go to the city that I always thought I would go there with romantic story, even I am alone this time. I just need a friend to take my good memories back. I need my spirit back. I need to be the sunny girl, the strong one.

Everybody says, that time will heal everything. But what is the wretched and endless in-between?

But, even the darkness is coming, and even the snow is coming. Now it is for dress on! Party starts! And Paris, finally here!

For the record

2010-10-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

Everyday life goes on.
And ticket for Paris Booked.

Easy come, easy go.

The best season for me is autumn, and this year, I am going to be 26 years old. That means, going to be a middle age people. Old enough to take care of myself, be responsible for myself.

Technology is not reliable

2010-10-17T12:30:00.000-07:00

How many years I have used MSN Space as my journal? Maybe 5 years already. But it just went away in this way.
I am an engineer also, but now I should admit it, technology is not reliable -.-

The good thing is here, not changed...
Okey, I think it is good, as a beginning :P

我想，这个地方比较隐秘

2007-03-22T08:36:00.000-07:00

哈哈，应该没有什么人会到这里~~~
oyeahoyeah~
可以畅所欲言~~~
不爽的，郁闷的，闷骚的，神经质的~通通可以这里来发泄~
太happy了~~~~